I don't know if i ever struggled to do what is wright, but i always tired to be the right person by always doing what is good. Even when my peers took risk and dared authorities, i kept silent and continued with myself, although I admit peer pressure at times had the best of me. Right now it seems I am a totally different person. Their's just this other me trying to burst forth with certain new strange characters, making me feel like am going through puberty all over again.
I always struggle to put this other side of me on low key, but I am not always successful and when it finally breaks free, it scares the hell out of me. Its unapologetic, wants to live the free life and enjoy the world, has a twisted sense of write and wrong hates being silent or taken for granted and speaks up whenever it feels threathened.
Honestly in some ways, I like this other side of me. Why? It does what it wants, stands up to everyone in a fearless way and is very confident, things that am not really known for, but then, it's ready to push this habits to the limit, disregarding all forms of authorities and really hurting peoples feelings. =====so lost====
But i'll smile. why? even if its fake, it makes others happy and this keeps me calm even if its all but a lie.The good news is I finally get to know from you if am crazy or not although this write up suggested I probably am. But i sincerely hope you don't see me that way.