I always find myself back at the same spot, asking the questions that I once asked myself, having the same set of wishes, making and trying to correct the same mistakes. I wish time is flexible so I can change but its not and the future is uncertain. I have so many reason to be happy but am not because the only reason why i want to be happy eludes me. Every time i wish to set matters straight, two mistakes and more happens and am back to wanting to set matters straight. A never ending cycle of sadness. More pathetic is the fact that I know a way out of all of this but have not the energy to walk on that way.==Doing things alone== So am just going to try to make it through this night alone and then i know i have a shot in life More important is the smile which hides all of this away. The good news is I finally get to know if am crazy or ...